Existe un mutilado.

Existe un mutilado,  no de un combate sino de un abrazo, no de la guerra sino de la paz. Perdio el rostro en el amor y no en el odio. Lo perdio en el curso normal de la vida y no en un accidente. Lo perdio en el orden de la naturaleza y no en el desorden de los hombres. 

- Cesar Vallejo.

September 2nd, 2010. 

The day that my life changed. 

Distance means so little when someone means so much.

I'll never forget you. 


I miss you and I love you.

 

This is not goodbye, this is a see you later. ♥

Today, one of my best friends left my country to live in France in a boarding school. 

She was not one of the smartest persons, she was not the nicest, she was not the prettiest and the skinniest, but she was one of the people I could trust the most. 

In lunchtime she visited the school to say goodbye to all her friends and schoolmates. Sitting in a circle were 6 friends, her, and me. One of my friends was already crying, I was already feeling depressed, and I could see that they weren't super duper happy neither. We all talked about our memories with her, the times when we laughed, cried, and fought. 

She told every one of us that she loved us, that she was going to miss us like hell, and that we were great friends, or in my case, that I saw her when she was invisible (and no, not in a lesbo-kind of way. It was in a you were my friend when no one cared to be one) but one of the friends who were there, was her friends too in that part of her life. 

When the bell rang to announce that the recess was over.. there all my tears came rushing down and I couldn't stop them. When I turned to see my friends, the one who cried when we were in a circle was drowning in tears. We hugged and took pictures for her to keep. 

We all had bracelets in our hands and the ones who didn't had hairbands. We all gave her one of those so she could remember us when she went to France. Then, it was time to leave. 

That was the moment that all of us cried. If there was among us any girl who didn't cry, I could assure that she felt sad, hollow even. Because we all felt like a part of us was being ripped of our chests. Or at least I did. 

I know that it will take months for me to see her again. 

But I know one thing for sure: Hell can freezes over. Pigs can learn to fly. But I will not forget her. 

I will miss her like hell. 

I love you Twixy. 

Friends forever and after.

Find a guy...♥

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when your in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who think you are just as pretty without make up on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you. The one who turns to his friends and say, "That's her." 

~ Only if it were that easy...♥

A Partial List of Eternal Truths. ♥

1. This is it!
2. There are no hidden meanings.
3. You can't get there from here, and besides there's no place else to go. 
4. Nothing lasts!
5. There is no way of getting all you want 
6. You can't have anything unless you let go of it. 
7. You only get to keep what you give away. 
8. There is no particular reason why you lost out on some things. 
9. The world is not necessarily just. Being good often foes not pay off and there is no compensation for misfortune. 
10. You have a responsibility to do your best nonetheless. 
11. It is a random universe to which we bring meaning. 
12. You don't really control anything. 
13. You can't make anyone love you. 
14. No one is any stronger or any weaker than anyone else. 
15. Everyone is, in his own way, vulnerable. 
16. There are no great men/women. 
17. If you have a hero, look again; you have diminished yourself in some way. 
18. All of you are worth something, if you will only own it. 
19. Childhood is a nightmare. 
20. But it is so very hard to be an on-your-own, take care of yourself because there is no one else to do it for you.
21. Love is not enough, but it sure helos. 
22. We have only ourselves, ad one another. That may not be much, but that's all there is. 
23. How strange, that so often, it all seems worth it. 
24. We are responsible for everything we do. 
25. No excuses will be accepted. 
26. You can run, but you can't hide. 
27. We must learn the power of living with out helplessness. 
28. The only victory lies in surrender to oneself. 
29. You are free to do whatever you like. You need only face the consequences. 
30. What do you know - for sure - anyway?
31. Learn to forgive yourself, again and again. 
32. And again and again. 
     By Sheldon Kopp.

Did you say it?

Did you say it? "I love you. I don't ever want to live without you. You changed my life." Did you say it? Make a plan. Set a goal. Work toward it, but every now and then, look around; Drink it in 'cause this is it. It might all be gone tomorrow. 

- Meredith Gray, Gray's Anatomy.

My Forever.♥

"Okay", he said. He took a breath. "What would you do, if you could do anything?" I took a step toward him, closing the space between us. "This" I said. And then I kissed him. 

 Kissed him. There, in the middle of the street, as the world went on around us. Behind me, I knew Jason was still waiting for an explanation, my sister was still lecturing, and that angel still had her eyes skyward, waiting to fly. As for me, I was just trying to get it right, whatever that meant. But now I finally felt I was on my way. Everyone had a forever, but given a choice, this would be mine. The one that began in this moment, with Wes, in a kiss that took my breath away, then gave it back - leaving me astounded, amazed, and most of all, alive.

Fragment of The Truth About Forever.

By Sarah Dessen. 

 

How it starts...♥

"Okay, what's going on here? What the heck is this? Oh my God. What's this feeling in the pit of my stomach? Who is this - this amazing creature before me? I looked at Rosemary and just felt so, um, confused. She's a girl. I'm supposed to despise girls, not feel nervous talking to one, not feel tongue-tied. I mean this was Rosemary Telesco, I knew her since Kindergarten!"

- Gabe, Little Manhattan. ♥

Broken-hearted.

"Love is an ugly, terrible business practiced by fools. It'll trample your heart and leave you bleeding on the floor. And what does it really get you in the end? Nothing but few incredible memories that you can't ever shake. The truth is, there's gonna be other girls out there. I mean, I hope. But I'm never gonna get another first love. That one is always gonna be her."

- Gabe, Little Manhattan.

What Love is About.. ♥

"Love isn't about ridiculous little words. Love is about grand gestures. Love is about airplanes pulling banners over stadiums, proposals on jumbo-trons, giant words in sky writing. Love is about going that extra mile even if it hurts, letting it all hang out there. Love is about finding courage inside of you that you didn't even know was there."

- Little Manhattan.

Oh. My. Effing. God.

Okay, I'm in shock. 

Before saying why I am shocked I'm going to let you in this secret not so secretly kept. 


I love Logan Lerman, who I like to call the love of my life. 

First I had this huge crush on Channing Tatum, but I discovered that the guy is like 30 years old, so he is too old for me, and yeah, I know, love has no age, but let's get realistic, even if I met him, he's married so there's no opportunity for us (and I'm actually saddened by this). 


Then my best friend saw Percy Jackson, which I have to admit is not the best movie ever... well, it doesn't even get in the top 20 of the best movies ever made, hell, it doesn't even get in the top 40. So.. the point is, she saw the movie and told me "Hey, I just saw Percy Jackson and the guy who plays Percy is VERY hot", so her dad bought the movie and we saw it together, and hell yes, he is hot. She told me the name of the guy that played Percy who, how you can imagine, is Logan Lerman. And after that, I've loved him. 


You must be thinking "HAHA She is crazy, she thinks she's going to marry him, she's not even going to met him! And if she does she's not going to become his girlfriend" Well, thanks for being realistic but I'm an exception, or so I like to think.

If I say I will do whatever it takes to be his girl.. I'm going to sound stupid so I'll just keep my secret plan to myself, and make you suffer wondering what my secret and so awesome plan is... like I even have one. 


So going back to the subject, I just told you how I got to know Logan Lerman (who later I realized that I knew who he was but never bothered to get to know more about him). Now I'm going to explain why I am in shock. 


Just one word: Hair. 

Did you see the picture I posted along with this? He is Logan. His hair I really hope is not. 
That's how he's going to appear in his next movie: The Three Musketeers, where he plays D'Artagnan.  Let's hope that all that hair is just a wig. 

Please. 
Please.
Please. 


He is beautiful even with all the hair, but you know, a little shorter wouldn't hurt anyone.

Things to do when you're bored in an elevator..~

1. Mutter surprising confessions just as the door closes. 
2. Rush to catch the elevator. 
3. Act as if you've been spotted by the bad guy and run away in panic to the elevator. 
4. Translate other people's conversation into spanish. 
5. Text on your phone, while speaking your message out loud. 
6. Orbit the largest person. 
7. Stand an uncomfortably short distance from another person. 
8. Hold a head-shot an pretend you are rehearsing for an audition... use every conceivable inflection. 

Rules of Being Human. ♥

You will receive a body. You may like it or hate it, but it will be yours for as long as you live. How you take care of it or fail to take care of it make an enormous difference in the quality of your life. 

There are no mistakes, only lessons. Growth is a process of trial, error and experimentation. You can learn as much from failure as you can from success. Maybe more. 

A lessons is repeated until it is learned. A lesson will be presented to you in various forms until you have learned it. When you have learned it (as evidenced by a change in your attitude and ultimately your behavior) then you can go on to the next lesson. 

Learning lessons does not end. There is no stage of life that does not contain some lessons. As long as you live there will be something more to learn. 

"There" is no better than "Here". When your "there" has become a "here", you will simply discover another "there" that will again look better than your "here". Don't be fooled by believing that the unattainable is better than what you have. 

Others are merely mirrors of you. You cannot love or hate something about another person unless it reflects something you love or hate about yourself. When tempted to criticize others, ask yourself why you feel so strongly. 

What you make of your life is up to you. You have all the tools and resources you need. What you create with those tools and resources is up to you. Remember that through desire, goal setting and unflagging effort you can have anything you want. Persistence is the key to success. 

The answers lie inside of you. The solutions to all of life's problems lie within your grasp. All you need to do is ask, look, listen and trust yourself. 

You will forget all this. 

As Life Goes By... ♥

As life goes by, I learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them. I've learned that no matter how much you care, some people just don't care back. I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. I've learned that it tales years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it. I've learned that it's not what you have in your life, but whom you have in your life that counts. I've learned that out background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we're responsible for who we become. I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, not matter how we feel. I've learned that either you control your attitude, or it controls you. I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel. I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated. I've learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see it totally different. I've learned that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that. I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others, sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself. I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And, just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do. I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn't stop for your grief. I've learned that no matter how you try to protect your children, they will eventually get hurt, and you will get hurt in the process. I've learned that you should never tell a child their dreams are unlikely outlandish. Few more things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if they believed it. I've learned that heroes are people who do what has to be done, when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences & I've learned that you can keep going after you can't.

Things to do when you're bored at home..~

1. Laugh hysterically every day at 12:58 pm. 

2. Rock out to kiddie songs. 

3. Use cooking spray as deodorant. 

4. Freestyle rap. Poorly. 

5. Matter-of-factly take off your sock. Put in a wallet. 

6. Become inexplicably irate at the sight of toast. 

 

40 ways to make a pizza guy feel nervous.

1. While you are making and order, randomly start pressing the numbers on the phone and tell the guy to stop doing it. 
2. Make up a credit card name and ask if they accept it.
3. Ask for a Big Mac, French Fries and a Large Coke. 
4. Finish the order with: "Remember, this conversation never happened".
5. Tell him you've got another pizza delivery on the other line and you're buying from the one who offers the lowest price. 
6. Just give him your address and say "Surprise me". Then hang up. 
7. Answer his questions with other questions. 
8. Spell the ingredients. 
9. Stutter every time you say something with the letter "P"
10. Ask him if they have pizza. 
11. Say "Hello" and act as if he called you. 
12. Make your order being very decided and secure, then, when he asks you if you would like a drink with the pizza, act ad if you were confused. 
13. Change your accent every 5 seconds. 
14. Ask for 56 pepperoni slices followed by an equation. 
15. If he repeats the order to make sure, say "Ok, it's $17.90, please proceed to the next window to pick up your order"
16. Explain him that you want to rent a Pizza. 
17. Ask if you can keep the box. When he answers yes, make a huge sigh of relief. 
18. Ask him if they exploit child labor. 
19. Tell him to make sure that your pizza is dead. 
20. Imitate the voice of the guy taking the order. 
21. Eliminate the verbs of everything you say. 
22. Tell him that there's a surprise party at yours and that you would appreciate if the delivery boy could hide behind the couch until the celebrated one comes in to surprise him/her. 
23. Ask if you could see the menu 
24. Warn them that they have no idea of what they are dealing with by supplying this order. 
25. Ask him which ingredient is better for a meal with a specific type of wine. 
26. Burp and then tell your dog that he should be ashamed. 
27. Ask only for one slice. 
28. Psychoanalyze the guy taking the order. 
29. Complain about the service. Call again two hours later saying that you were drunk and that you are sorry about what you said. 
30. Tell the guy taking the order to tell the one in charge to  tell the supervisor that hes fired. 
31. Randomly start swearing to someone who is apparently next to you. 
32. Stop speaking every 10 seconds and start playing an instrument. 
33. Tell a secret code to the guy taking the order and tell him to memorize it for orders you'll make in the future. 
34. Ask for mushrooms as the first ingredient, then before you hang up, say "No mushrooms please". Then hang up before he can say anything. 
35. When he repeats the order, correct him changing an ingredient, then correct him again, and again. The third time ask him if it's hist first day working there. 
36. Breath loudly. 
37. Ask him how many whales/dolphins had to die to make that pizza. 
38. Avid using the word "Pizza" by any means. If the guy taking the order says it, hang up saying "Please, don't use that word"
39. Make and order during a car chase on TV. When there are gunshots, yell "Aaaaarrghhhh"
40. If the guy taking the order doesn't take any of the previous jokes, ask him if there's any other who would take them.

In the road of life... ~

In the road of life you are gonna learn some important things. One of them is who your real friends are and who aren't. The big question is, how will you know? You will not. In some cases you will know until it's too late, when they had already backstabbed you and hurt your feelings. You will feel awful, but then, you will take notice of those people who are gonna stick with you, never let you go, and care for you, are your real friends, and are gonna help you through the storm, no matter how awful the thunders sound. Those are the people you cannot afford to lose, because if you lose them, for any reason, you life will not be the same. So, let go of those who made you feel like shit, and keep up with those you know are gonna stick with you no matter what 'till the end, because those are the ones that really matter.
 

The Hunger Games. ♥

 "Deep in the meadow, hidden far away

A cloak of leaves, a moonbeam ray

Forget your woes and let your troubles lay

And when it's morning again, they'll wash away

Here it's safe, here it's warm

Here the daises guard you from every harm

Here your dreams are sweet and tomorrow brings them true

Here is the place where I love you." 

By Suzanne Collins.

Along for the Ride. ♥

"It was so risky and so scary, and yet at the same time, so beautiful. Maybe the truth was, it shouldn't be easy to be amazing. Then everything would be. It's the things you fight for and struggle with before earning that have the greatest worth"

By Sarah Dessen. 

The Truth About Forever. ♥

"We'd start slow, the way we always did, because the run, and the game, could go on for a while. Maybe even forever. 

That was the thing. You just never knew. Forever was so many different things. It was always changing, it was what everything was really all about. It was twenty minutes, or a hundred years, or just this instant, or any instant I wished would last and last. But there was only one truth about forever that really mattered, and that was this: it was happening. Right then, as I ran with Wes into that bright sun, and every moment afterward. Look, there. Now. Now. Now"

By Sarah Dessen.

Alice in Wonderland~

One day Alice came to a fork in the road and saw a Cheshire cat in a tree. "Which road do I take?" she asked. "Where do you want to go?" was his response. "I don't know," Alice answered. "Then," said the cat, "it doesn't matter."

Random Facts. Err.. I mean: Snapple's Random Facts.

1. Maine is the only state with a one-syllable name. 
2. A Goldfish's attention span is three seconds. 
3. Animals that lay eggs don't have belly buttons. 
4. Beavers can hold their breath for 45 minutes under water.
5. Slugs have four noses. 
6. Camels have thre eyelids. 
7. A queen bee can lay 800-1,500 eggs per day. 
8. A bee has five eyes. 
9. Mosquitoes are attracted to people who just ate bananas. 
10. Flamingos are pink because they eat shrimp. 
11. Emus and kangaroos cannot walk backward. 
12. Cats have over 100 vocal chords. 
13. All porcupines float in the water. 
14. A jellyfish is 95% water.
15. Children grow faster in the spring. 
16. The Hawaiian alphabet only has 12 letters. 
17. A ball of glass will bounce higher than a ball of rubber.  

I'll post more random facts tomorrow or whenever I have the chance :)

A quote you have probably heard.

"All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them"

 - Walt Disney.  

Introduction.

Hello :) 

I'm a Loser with a Laptop. 

Actually, I'm a girl with a lot of thoughts, opinions and dreams hoping that someday those dreams will come real. 

I must admit I don't have interesting things to say here. I just found this a cool way to express myself. I can't promise I will write everyday because I go to school and I have a lots of homework this year. But I can promise that I will try to write. 

I don't care if people read or not my blog. 

I'll just use this as a safe way to express my feelings and my problems. 

I'll change the names of people and places to protect their identities. 

I hope somebody found what I write interesting. 

I'll start "blogging" now. 

Btw, I don't know if it's too obvious but this is my first time at this. 

Hoping somewhere someone enjoy this.